duno what i really want to do now

i just let it flow, as good as possible

sometimes i think, should i give up ? but i should give up from what ?

sometimes i think, should i go ? but i should go from what ?

nothing i 'really' have
nothing i 'really' hold
it just a fake condition,apparent.

i know, slowly but sure it can be over. it can be over anytime.
but i don't care.
i just wanna feel what i want to feel. upset?happy?sad?angry?
it's my risk.